2017

How was this 2017 for me?

Almost becomes the worst year for me, where do I start?

And also has its positive side

January, thanks to this month I and a friend started our first DU Present, the best part of the script of the story I did it, which I was very happy to start a long project

February, although I was happy to do a 3 month DU Present, I was also very nervous because it was a completely short month, I was worried and distressed by that disadvantage for our work, the only thing that relaxed me was an au and several headcanons that I read, just mix a wolf pokemon and a former villain from Team Plasma and isn't N nor Ghetsis, and tada I did not expect to be his fan after having met him for the anime 4 years ago, February 21, a Friday morning at 10:30 am and they had to choose Kaiba as his voice (I hated him for that detail, pathetic, no?)

March, the pressure to finish our DU Present came back, I was more scared and nervous because it was the last month, also unfortunately my grandmother passed away, the mother of my father, We do not get along well because she was very religious of the old gospel, It was difficult to talk to her, I had a dream with her telling me I was very sad and I was also very happy and the last thing she said was "Carlos (my father's name), Vanessa is here", unfortunately I woke up and cried because I miss him

April, I started a silly crossover, which I want to do more drawings in this 2018, it was also the beginning that I was going to draw more in 2017, I also started to like the villains and I felt relaxed

May, I also drew more and I liked to make a single comic of two endings for two ocs of mine totally different, but everything good lasted a short time, because I wanted to do more projects, discourage me there

June, the summer challenges, it's my favorite thing but it started to lower my spirits, for nobody is a secret that Venezuela is still in disgrace, I just did not expect that so much pain for our country affected me and my neighborhood, I was afraid of dying, because my neighborhood was being looted, it was lucky that nothing happened in my house but I was devastated and even wanted to kill myself because I can not stand this anymore

July, I still had very low spirits, it was difficult to draw but I also realized little by little that I chose the wrong character for the summer challenge, the only thing that made me feel better was my brother's university graduation, when that happens I do not know but I can see my father in those events like my high school graduation, the last party before my sister's university graduation and this, maybe it's the feeling that I wanted him to be here

August, same thing that happened with the DU Present, the pressure to finish and take me an unpleasant surprise at the end

September, the unpleasant surprise that everything I did with my friend in DU, is no longer a canon, for her and thanks to her, I improve my art and my comics, I usually accept the summer challenges, I accept them with a lot of encouragement, but this time I hated it, it was also the beginning of another emotional relapse for me, but not everything was bad, I took all that month to practice and accept a challenge type meme to draw myself in different themes, which I enjoyed a lot

October, the emotional relapses on my age, since 2016 I had a relapse, the worst my family thought I was doing a tantrum, I felt very bad about myself and about my age but then this happened  I can say that my month was mediocreBut thank God it was not worse than last October because I got:
I had a good birthday at the beginning with the congratulations from my beloved until end eating & celebrating with my family and playing BW2 with the Colress' redemption 
My depression and anxiety were annoying and still are annoying but it did not cause me to do a lot of emotional relapse and personal outburst in me
Draw a little more than October of last year
I saw my drawing classmates and I had back my last year exhibition drawing
And my Halloween (it's not something that celebrates where I live) was decent when I drew and I saw Generations; Episode 14 in japanese without subtitles (thanks Johel)
But I would like to say the same about my Venezuela (it's about politics, which I do not want to talk much about it here)
Puedo decir que mi mes fue mediocre
Pero gracias a dios que no fue peor como el octubre del año pasado porque obtuve:
Tuve un buen cumpleaños de principio con and I felt good on my own birthday

November, I drew more, I also met a little better two wonderful people and also I made a new friend, I also could not believe that a silly sketch ended up being reality in Pokemon Ultra Sun & Ultra Moon and I still can not get over it

December, a happy but difficult month, the happy part is that I did not expect to use discord for a very special group at first I was scared because I am a LGBT supporter and I thought I made the terrible decision of my life but in reality it became the best decision that I made in my life, because I was not having so many new and wonderful friends

About DU, I did not like much the decision of black and white drawings, they are not very festive values, only white is a festive value

Unfortunately I lost my pretty girl, my dog Susie

The parties enjoy to a certain extent, I am not very sociable with my family and I do not want to imagine how terrible I was, especially the New Year's party

I did not draw a lot but every drawing I made I enjoyed it with a lot of love

In short, almost 2017 was going to become the worst year of my life

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Como fue este 2017 para mi?

Casi se convierte el peor año para mi, donde empiezo?

Y de conste tambien tiene su lado positivo

Enero, gracias a este mes yo y un amigo iniciamos nuestro primer DU Present, la mejor parte el guion de la historia yo la hice, lo cual yo estaba muy feliz iniciar un proyecto largo 

Febrero, apesar que estaba feliz por hacer un DU Present de 3 meses, tambien estaba muy nerviosa porque es un mes completamente corto, estaba preocupada y angustiada por esa enome desventaja para nuestro trabajo, lo unico que me relajaba era un au y varios headcanons que lei, solo mezcle un Lobo pokemon y un ex villano de Team Plasma y no es N ni Ghetsis, tada yo no esperaba ser su fan despues haberlo conocido por el anime hace 4 años, febrero 21, un viernes en la mañana 10:30am y tuvieron que elegir a Kaiba como su voz (lo odié por ese detalle, patetico no?)

Marzo, la presion para terminar nuestro DU Present volvio, estaba mas austada y nerviosa porque era el ultimo mes, tambien lamentablemente mi abuela fallecio, la madre de mi padre, no nos llevamabos bien porque ella era muy religiosa de viejo evangelio, era dificil hablar con ella, tuve un sueño con ella diciendome estaba muy triste y tambien estaba muy feliz y ultimo que me dijo fue "Carlos (el nombre de mi padre), ya llego Vanessa", por desgracia yo desperte y llorando porque yo lo extraño a él

Abril, comence un tonto crossover, de cual quiero hacer mas dibujos en este 2018, tambien fue el comienzo de que iba dibujar mas en el 2017, tambien comenzo a gustarme los villanos y me sentia relajada

Mayo, tambien dibujé mas y me gusto hacer un solo comic de dos finales para dos ocs míos, totalmente diferentes, 
pero todo lo bueno duro poco tiempo, porque queria hacer mas proyectos, me desanime ahi

Junio, los retos de verano, es mi cosa favorita pero ahi comenzo abajar mi ánimo, para nadie es un secreto que Venezuela todavia esta en desgracia, solo no esperaba que tanto dolor para nuestro pais nos afectaba a mi y mi vecindario, tenia miedo de morir, porque mi vecindario estaba siendo saqueado, fue suerte no paso nada en mi casa pero yo estaba destrozada e incluso queria suicidarme porque ya no soporto esto

Julio, yo todavia con el animo muy bajo, era dificil dibujar pero tambien me di cuenta poco a poco que elegi al personaje equivocado para el reto de verano, lo unico que me hizo sentir mejor fue la graduacion universitaria de mi hermano, cuando pasa eso yo no se pero logro ver a mi padre en esos eventos como mi graduacion universitaria de la secundaria, la ultima fiesta antes de la graduacion de mi hermana y esto, quizás es el sentimiento que yo queria que él estuviera aquí

Agosto, misma cosa que paso con el DU Present, la presion para terminar y llevarme una sopresa desagradable al final

Septiembre, la sopresa desgradable que todo lo que hice con mi amiga en DU, ya no es canon, por ella y gracias a ella, mejore mi arte y mis comics, normalmente acepto los retos de verano, yo los acepto con mucho animo, pero esta vez lo odié, tambien era el comienzo de otra recaida emocional para mi

Octubre, las recaidas emocionales sobre mi edad, desde el 2016 tuve una recaida, lo peor mi familia creyo que estaba haciendo una berrinche, sentia muy mal de mi misma y sobre mi edad pero luego esto  I can say that my month was mediocreBut thank God it was not worse than last October because I got:
I had a good birthday at the beginning with the congratulations from my beloved until end eating & celebrating with my family and playing BW2 with the Colress' redemption 
My depression and anxiety were annoying and still are annoying but it did not cause me to do a lot of emotional relapse and personal outburst in me
Draw a little more than October of last year
I saw my drawing classmates and I had back my last year exhibition drawing
And my Halloween (it's not something that celebrates where I live) was decent when I drew and I saw Generations; Episode 14 in japanese without subtitles (thanks Johel)
But I would like to say the same about my Venezuela (it's about politics, which I do not want to talk much about it here)
Puedo decir que mi mes fue mediocre
Pero gracias a dios que no fue peor como el octubre del año pasado porque obtuve:
Tuve un buen cumpleaños de principio con  paso y me senti bien en mi propio cumpleaños

Noviembre, dibuje mas, tambien conocí un poco mejor dos personas maravillosas y tambien hice una nueva amiga, tambien no podia creer que un tonto boceto termino siendo realidad en Pokemon Ultra Sol y Ultra Luna y aun no puedo superarlo

Diciembre, un mes alegre pero dificil, la parte alegre es que no esperaba usar discord para un grupo muy especial al principio tenia miedo porque soy simpatizante de la comunidad lgbt y pensaba que hice el terrible decision de mi vida pero en realidad se convirtio la mejor decision que hice en mi vida, porque no estaba tener tantos nuevos y maravillosos amigos

Sobre DU, no me gusto mucho la decision de dibujos blanco y negro, no son valores muy festivos, solo el blanco es un valor festivo

Por desgracia perdi a mi niña bonita, mi perra Susie

Las fiestas disfrute hasta cierto punto, no soy muy sociable con mi familia y no quiero que imagine lo terrible que estuve, especialmente la fiesta de año nuevo

No dibuje mucho pero cada dibujo que hice lo disfrute con mucho amor

En fin, casi 2017 iba convertirse el peor año de mi vida